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It’s been awhile since I prayed.
I mean, okay, I pray nearly every day. Small pleas to God to make my train start moving again on the way to work, to grant me patience with the slow walkers in front of me on the sidewalk, to make it snow.
But I hardly talk to God anymore. It used to be something I did all the time. I used to have whole conversations with Him as I drove around town back home, or as I walked to class, as I straightened my hair. I don’t remember when I stopped, and I can’t tell you why, because I miss it. I miss God.
…Which is sort of silly, because I know He’s there. I know He’s waiting, watching, arms outstretched, ready to welcome me, ready to take me back, to listen to me and let me revel in the joy of His love.
I just don’t understand why I’m not running back to Him, why I’m not falling all over myself to get back to Him in any way that I can. When did I become content with this disconnectedness?
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when you have that answer, let me know.
Comment by missashleyis January 12, 2009 @ 9:18 pmthis is a big subject… but i would say that in order to truly serve god… you must find the truest form of god that you can find. that has huge ramifications to it. in my mind the way god communicates to us is by feeling. people preying to god is like trying to talk at god, we humans created language. feelingness is what we all were born with… feeling good, feeling bad. its just in our dna, and if we can tap that then i believe that god will respond. my way of doing things is raising my tonal so that i can listen to god. there is a process to this and its called meditation. all peoples do it, if you ever just thought of nothing while taking a walk, thats a form of meditation. there’s much more on this topic that can be said. but for now thats what i hope i can help ya with. : )
Comment by Nathan Eberly August 14, 2009 @ 8:22 pm